Jun 28, 2011

Blast From the Past

This is an old post from an old blog that I wanted to re-post here:  :)

So, I was thinking about it the other day and talking it over with my mom and I decided that society's points of view suck. That goes for just about every point of view that I can think of. Why are people so stupid? Why doesn't anybody think for themselves anymore? What happened to individuality? And why does everyone get their panties in a wad when someone decides to step up, say it like it is, and do something completely different from the norm? What is the norm anyway? And who decided to make it the norm? And who gave them the authority to do that? Let's go with the old catch phrase, "If the whole world jumped off a cliff, would you do the same?" But then people have to make it all complicated and ask silly things like well, did they have a parachute? And, if the whole world does it, then they must know something I don't! Or even, will I die when I land? NO! Stop it! Don't complicate it! They jump off and DIE! Because they are all idiots and didn't think for themselves! Because they asked those same stupid questions and believed someone else's answer!

ANYWAY... Now that I'm done ranting, this is what I'm going to do about it! Because what good does it do to complain if you don't get off your tush and move?! (another societal flaw... complacency) So, since I am SO done with the "world", "society", "general public", "everybody else", whatever you want to call it, many outside views that are not my own, telling me what to do, think, say, how to act, and what is acceptable or not, I have decided to ignore it! And in the process, I am going to piss a lot of people off! Namely those that I live with and the ones that have to deal with me on a daily basis. Unless of course they feel the same way I do and embrace the personal change. (Not really a change, just a personal challenge to LIVE!)

You know what holds me back? What keeps me from going forward? Fear. Yup, plain and simple. (Another flaw imposed by society) Fear of being judged. Fear of being talked about and rejected. Fear of people thinking bad about me. Fear of people period. Fear of the unknown, of what could, "possibly" happen. Fear of standing out. Fear of failure. Fear of everything! Everyone wants their lives to go well, so most follow the set out guidelines, right? But not everyone.I don't want to be in that category, "everyone". I am me, Holly Michelle Baldridge Guerrero. Me. Plain and simple. NO MORE FEAR. And that doesn't mean that I won't still fear things, but from now on, I don't want it to hold me back!

I'm sure you have heard the song that says, "I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing.... And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter and I gave the forgiveness I'd been denying, And I said someday I hope you get to live, to live like you were dying" I've always listened to that song and loved it, but no! Why is life like that? Why are people like that? Why does everyone wait until they are dying to live? I know the song is trying to stress the fact that you shouldn't wait, and people agree with that idea, and sing the song imagining themselves jummping out of an airplane, but what happens when the song is over? Why can't we learn from other's mistakes? Are we really that stupid as a species? I don't want to get to the end and think about all the mistakes I made and how I would have lived differently. How do I want people to see me? How do I want to be remembered? What legacy do I want to leave for my children and family? Then you know what? That is exactly what I am going to do! That is exactly how I am going to live!

Who tells me that I can't succeed? Who is holding me back from reaching my goals, my ambitions? Who is stopping me from living in bold color? Who tells me "no"? I am the only one who rains on my parade. I am the one adhering to the standards or society. But I CAN do anything that I put my mind to, and you know why? Because I have PASSION, I have FIRE, I have DRIVE and DESIRE. For me things are black or white, right or wrong, here or there, yes or no. There is no gray area, no in between. Because society lays in between, society avoids the extremes, and I gravitate toward them. If they can't be put in one of those categories, it needs to be discarded, plain and simple. We only get one shot, so aim HIGH! Higher than you ever dreamed you could reach and you know what will happen? You will get farther than you thought you could go! Let's be REAL, and not societies standards of "real"...

The moral of the story?
Society is stupid.
I hold myself down.
That's all going to change.

Okay, I'm done!