It seems like it always takes me a little while to process new information before I can accept that it is a reality...
These last seven months have really dragged. I've felt like my life has been suspended in mid-air, no moving forward or backward, just frozen in time, full of anticipation, fear, dread, hope, and even some excitement at times, of what lies in store for us. I've wanted to prepare to move my family to Mexico, so that I would be ready at the drop of a hat, but I never could bring myself to actually do anything about it, because I still clung, and wanted to cling, to the hope of staying stateside.
It's not that I dislike Mexico, by any means; I just wanted to have a choice, a say in the matter,some semblance of control over my own future. But maturity and experience have taught me that it was a choice I made when I said "I do," and I'm okay with that. The thought of living in Mexico is a bit daunting, though, because I am not Mexican, I have never lived anywhere else than right here, in this same 25 mile radius, my whole 27 years of life. There are so many variables and unknowns that I can't find the solution in my head (oh, that's my inner math geek showing, don't mind her...).
These last seven months have really dragged. I've felt like my life has been suspended in mid-air, no moving forward or backward, just frozen in time, full of anticipation, fear, dread, hope, and even some excitement at times, of what lies in store for us. I've wanted to prepare to move my family to Mexico, so that I would be ready at the drop of a hat, but I never could bring myself to actually do anything about it, because I still clung, and wanted to cling, to the hope of staying stateside.
It's not that I dislike Mexico, by any means; I just wanted to have a choice, a say in the matter,some semblance of control over my own future. But maturity and experience have taught me that it was a choice I made when I said "I do," and I'm okay with that. The thought of living in Mexico is a bit daunting, though, because I am not Mexican, I have never lived anywhere else than right here, in this same 25 mile radius, my whole 27 years of life. There are so many variables and unknowns that I can't find the solution in my head (oh, that's my inner math geek showing, don't mind her...).
